Today I had to drive Tyler to his new school in Chandler so that he could take assessment tests. The drive was relatively easy as it was Monday-light and 9 A.M.
We met the principal and received a tour of the beautiful new facility. Tyler took his tests. The staff handled him beautifully. It was all perfect.
While Tyler was testing, the boys and I tested the drive to Chandler-Gilbert Community College, where I am praying to get the job that I applied for. The drive was a simple six mile "L" and took less than 10 minutes
As I was driving back, I thought to myself, "Perfect. It all seems perfect." But there's a little piece of me that screams "No! It's not perfect! This is not the way that things are supposed to be!"
I'm not supposed to have a child with Asperger's.
I'm not supposed to have a child who goes to a school other than GCA.
I'm not supposed to have to drive my child 33 miles to said different school every day, and I'm surely not supposed to have to get a job so that I don't have to do the drive twice a day.
I'm not supposed to have to get this job before all four of my children are in school, and I'm not supposed to have to put my 3 year old in someone else's care.
This is not the way things are supposed to be. Right???
But it is the way things are.
I can do all things through Christ, who strengtheneth me. Philippians 4:13